How I'm Doing?

I was answering some comments on my blog and thought that I would post here since I haven't posted in a long time.

Actually I'm feeling pretty good now. It's the start of a new year and I can't say that I have had too many regrets in 2011.

I have learned many lessons though and I don't have any ill will or anger towards those who I have felt such things for. I have decided to release those negative thoughts and focus on the positive and focus on the lessons that I have learned from these experiences.

My Thankgiving was joyful, my Christmas was so much better that the one before and I am very grateful for that!

Right now its early morning (very early morning LOL!) and I have a cinammon candle burning in my window as a beacon of light for those early morning travellers that are out there.

My goals for 2012 are making more money online, and to stop and enjoy my life more and to stop every now and then and smell the roses!

Here's My Astrology Reading For Today

Here is my free horoscope reading for today

"Regarding your current struggle or debate, you should know that there are more people on your side than aren't ... and the people who aren't don't have much pull with the powers that be. Keep pushing for what you want, and keep talking to the people who can help make it happen. You're gaining real momentum, and you could reach an exciting tipping point today. Whatever has been holding you back is long gone -- and it's not coming back! Stay with this positive frame of mind."

This horoscope reading seems very appropriate for me today as I am going through something quite major in my life which has a lot to do with my financial situation and it's good to see these words in this reading as I am a very big law of attraction fan!

I'm just trying to get through this problem in my life right now and I can use all the help that I can get in this manner and like my horoscope says I have to stay with a positive frame of mind.

It's really something how one's horoscope reading can help with the problems that one is having in their lives and sometimes these reading provide helpful hints toward the solutions as well!

So I'm really going to try and stay positive and get this problem solved!

Been Feeling Down For A Few Days Now.....

I have been feeling down for the past few days - mostly, I know, because of my feelings! There is something that I want very, very much but I don't have it yet. I realize that my thoughts and feelings are thinking about what I don't have instead of knowing what I should be focusing on - which is what it is that I want to have.

It's very hard trying to keep my focus on what it is that I do want because I want it so badly and I don't have it yet.

Naturally I would like to become more finacially stable and live the life of my dreams but I seem to be blocking what I want because of the feelings that I am having.

For those of you who are in a similar situation where there is something that you really, really want and it hasn't manifested itself yet I hope this blog post will be helpful to you (as well as to me).

From the things that I have read concerning the law of attraction - what you focus on you will get. If you haven't gotten it then that means that you are blocking it by thinking negative thoughts and feeling negative feelings. I actually read a blog post from a woman who managed to make one of her (bigger) bills disappear simply by stating to the universe that she wished that the bill would just disappear - and it worked. The bill people called her up and said that she didn't have to pay the bill anymore! That just goes to show me that the law of attraction really does work!

Maybe I'm just going through some sort of test to see how badly I want it?

And while I'm feeling bad about what I don't have, now would be a good time to post another gratitude list!

I'm grateful that:

• that I have a nice warm home to go to
  
  
• that I have food to eat both in my refridgerator and the kitchen shelves
  
  
• that I have a positive balance in my bank account! Because there have been times that I have over-drawn my account and had to pay over $100 in bank fees!
  
  
• I belong to Google's Adsense program because it has earned me some nice spending money. I have also earned money online by writing guest blog posts - so I have earned money online!

I'm still working at being a master of the law of attraction just like the others that I have read about who have been able to manifest the life of their dreams!

I'm Going Through Some Heavy Anxiety Issues Today!

My day didn't get off to a very good start!

I worried and obsessed about some pressing financial problems and I further made it worse by looking more into it - thus getting more bad news. But now - a few hours later - as I look back on it the news isn't 100% bad - in fact there was some good news in there that will help me more!

First of all I know that worrying only feeds the problem more and makes it more of a monster - but I just couldn't help myself and the more I tried not to think about it the more I thought about it! Various negative scenarios entered my imagination and I just felt so bad!

I have my resources of advice to fall back on and they include things like

• focusing on what it is that I DO want instead of focusing on what I don't want
  
  
• finding out something good about the situation no matter how small that good may be!

Also too when I am having days like this I remember what "The Secret" says and that is to list the things that you are grateful for! Here is my list for today:

• I am grateful for my home! I love my home and I love where I live and I realize that I am fortunate to have a roof over my head - especially now during the winter months here in the Philadelphia area. The current temperature is 23 degrees but it feels like 15 degrees!
  
  
• I'm also grateful that I have heat! Old-styled radiators are bringing me heat and when I go by them I touch them and remind myself how grateful I am to be able to have heat! There is such a great feeling when coming home out of the cold into a nice warm house! (on another note: I was able to get a financial grant to help pay some of my past due heating bill expenses - and it is so very much needed and I am so grateful that I have gotten it! I received the notification a few days ago and the grant is sending the money directly to my heating bill company!)
  
  
• I'm grateful for the skills that I do have and I was recently reminded of this while online when I was reading an article about how we all have gifts and talents. What make this more interesting is that I was watching a snippet of a religious program and they were saying the exact same thing in that we all have talents!
  
  
• I'm grateful to be able to be online! I love working with my computer both online and off but I have come to realize that not everyone has a computer - much less online access - of their own!
  
  
• I'm grateful for the food that I do have in my refridgerator and whild I am craving some hot chocolate right now I know that I will have some soon because I vow to buy some with some of the money from my Adsense this month!

I have commented before about how the law of attraction has worked for me in the past. Quite frankly I think that it works all the time but it's me that is just trying too hard!

Besides having a copy of "The Secret" on disk, I was also able to check out the book "The Secret" from my library! It included some more information and advice that wasn't on the CD and it was very welcomed advice!

I think today was a day where my emotions - I should say my negative emotions - really got a hold of me. But jotting down my gratitude list has really helped me a lot!



1/31/09 Update!

I just thought that I should mention that the "financial" problem that I posted about above, that I obsessed and worried about came to a pleasant end! I did manage to find a pleasurable solution to the problem!

Been Feeling A Bit Down..............

It was great coming back to this blog to remind myself of many things! It was good seeing my mission statement again and it was a wonderful reminder reading all of my posts about the things that I have now that I am grateful for!

Even though 2008 seemed to be the worst year for others (if you go by what the news has said), I found that it was a great year for reflection and learning lessons in my life!

I have my mission statement goal and that is what I am working towards!

My Very Enjoyable Christmas!

I didn't have much but I enjoyed what I did have!

I thought of all the things that I was grateful for and I kept those thoughts in mind as I decided to enjoy the holiday season!

I decorated my Christmas tree (thankful to have a house to have the Christmas tree in) and enjoyed a nice cup of hot chocolate!

I didn't have any presents to put under the tree this year but I did buy some candy and put it under the Christmas tree.

1/5/08 Update:

Even though I didn't have any presents to put under the Christmas tree last year, I DID receive a lovely gift basket from one of my neighbors. Now this is ironic in itself because having this type of gift basket was on my Christmas "wish list" and when I got this gift basket I knew that the law of attraction was working in my favor!

I'm Still Waiting For My Adsense Check......

This is one of those situations where I should note what I am grateful for. I'm grateful that I'm getting an Adsense check at all. So many people have said how they have added adsense to their sites and have made little to no money from it yet.

You have to earn at least $100 during the month before Adsense will send you a payment and fortunately I was able to earn this amount last month. So now that I'm supposed to get an adsense payment this month for last month's earnings, I'm anxiously awaiting the payment.

What I Am Grateful For Today

I'm grateful for:

• the leftover "takeout" that I had for dinner tonight because it reminds me that I am capable of earning money online - this time with Adsense and it also reminds me of how good it feels to be able to afford ordering out every once in a while!
  
  
• I'm always grateful for my little cat - who is my furry companion and "fight" partner! She's eating dinner now!
  
  
• the jazz music that's playing in the background while I'm at the computer
  
  
• the money that I have that is going to allow me to buy more food and household essential items
  
  
• being inside a nice warm house while the winds and the rain are wrecking havoc outside
  
  
• my computer and being able to afford and have internet access. I'm also grateful for my all-in-one printer that allows me to make copies at midnight - a time of my choosing - so that I don't have to go "out" to make copies
  
  
• the talents that I do have! Just being able to have a blog - or should I say blogs - and continually being able to add more posts about my life so that other people can see that they are not alone with their problems. Hopefully this blog will help and inspire others too!

My Tarot Reading For Today

I was feeling kind of depressed today so I thought that I would do a tarot reading on myself and I drew the "Ace Of Wands".

Here is the interpretation for the "Ace of Wands"

using creative force
inventing a better way
expanding your potential
opening to greater possibilities
conceiving a dream
expressing yourself
stimulating your imagination
allowing a talent to unfold
coming up with a solution

showing enthusiasm
feeling fired up and eager
creating an aura of excitement
being ready to tackle the world
inspiring others
sustaining optimism
giving 110%

having confidence
believing in yourself
feeling assured of your abilities
being sure of success
having high self-esteem
having faith in your path
knowing things will work out

proceeding with courage
tackling a challenging task
going beyond your limits
being true to your beliefs
daring to take a stand
facing your fears
going for it

The Ace of Wands is a symbol of possibility in the area of creativity, excitement, adventure, courage and personal power. In readings, it shows that a seed of bold enthusiasm has been planted in your life although you may not yet recognize it. When the seed sprouts, it could take almost any form. It might be a creative idea, surge of optimism or need to act boldly. On the outside, it could be an offer, gift, opportunity, encounter or synchronistic event.

When you see this Ace, examine your life to see how its potent, confident energy could work for you. Be daring and brave. Sometimes you have to risk to get what you want. Look for the path that will excite you and push you beyond your limits. Seize the initiative, and let your enthusiasm take you to new heights. Wands are the suit of individual power and fulfillment. This Ace tells you that a time of passion is beginning. You will be able to assert your best for all to see.

The Ace of Wands is also the card of creativity. Under its influence, you can become a conduit for inspiration and invention. Forget tired, worn-out solutions. You have the chance to be original. Trust your own creative potential, and there will be no end to what you can achieve.

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This is a very interesting tarot reading for me but it does sound just like how my life is going. I am taking a lesser known road in my life and it is scary BUT it is the path that I want to take. I just can't tell you how much I am risking here but I know that it is a risk that I absolutely MUST take!

I Decided To Start This Blog Because.....

I have been having such a bad day!

There are so many things that I want in my life right now that I do not have right now and not having them is making me crazy, angry and bitter! But I know that this is not the way that I should be feeling.

What I should be feeling is gratitude for the things that I DO have and not focus on what I don't have. I am supposed to focus on what it is that I DO want and not focus on what I don't want. Now the fact that I know what I am supposed to be doing helps but I have to continue to work on those negative thoughts that keep coming into my head.

What I want is wealth, financial abundance, security and not having to worry about my bills! Now this sentence tells me a lot. I have written down what I do want but in the same sentence I have "not having to worry about my bills". Now I know that the solution for this is to focus on what I do want - which is finacial wealth and abundance - and not focus on what I don't want which is my worrying about bills. The solution for that is for me to focus on having financial wealth and abundance so that I have the money to pay my bills.

I have seen many times online and from other sources that one should keep a journal and that is exactly why I started this blog.

I know that there are many other people who are in the same situation as I am and want to be out of this kind of situation.

So hopefully my journey will help you on your own journey too!